Melanie ~ look at me with starry eyes...

I lasted maybe 20 minutes tops, and then I managed to throw it up all over myself, all over the table I was sitting on in a back room, all over the floor and I mean ALL OVER. I really let loose.

That was fun.

Then I started sobbing over the sink as I continued. Again, fun.

I moved into a new, clean room and the midwife told me that she was recommending that I just say I have gestational diabetes, go see the counselor at the hospital, see a nutritionist, do my 4 times a day finger pricks for the next 5 weeks and call it a day. I was concerned that would put me into high risk category and I'd be removed from the practice, but she said no, only if my blood sugars were not controllable.

Fine. I'm not doing that damn test again, that's for damn sure. Someone in a birth community here said they needed to redo it at 35 weeks but their OB said to leave it and just eat sensibly for the rest of the time. I kind of wish I had that OB. I'm so close to the end, with a baby that is growing perfectly, but fine, I'll do it. Tim says he'll follow the diet with me.

That's that!


I think we were home sometime around 10 am, I quickly washed off, went to bed and slept till 1:45 pm. It's a stressful test.

Last night I found myself mesmerized by my moving belly. Every time the baby moved, I could see it! I've been able to see it in the bath for a long time, but not while I was just laying in bed.

Of course, every time Tim tried to watch, the baby wouldn't even budge.

I can tell I feel bad about not cooking delicious meals for Tim, like I used to. Last night I dreamed I was trying to make something for him, and there was this big bad of wild rice pasta. It was rotini shaped, and was black and red. I was kind of disappointed when I looked in the pantry today, thinking about dinner, and realized I had only dreamed it. I think he'd like something like that!

I'm 19 weeks today! So close to being half way through this pregnancy! Just think, only 21 more weeks of reading about me feeling sick. Heh

I am going to try to make him dinner tonight. He's been living on Amy's food the last week, or left overs here and there. He isn't suffering, but one of the things I love is cooking good food for him.


I wish I watched the Olympic closing ceremonies. I heard they were quite ridiculous and silly with giant blown up beavers and mounties. I'm afraid I turned it off when Nickelback was playing, I think I had purposely forgotten they were Canadian.

I tossed some biscuits in the oven to crisp them up for lunch. 3 hours later I was sitting here wondering what smelled so good. Remembered, ran upstairs to three rock hard brown biscuits. Oops

I started feeling slightly better, so I quickly started some Christmas baking. Just oatmeal coconut drop cookies, they are sooooo good, I love my mom's recipe for them. With my aunt and cousin coming next week, I'd like to get SOME baking done.

Amy stopped in to bring me oats, since I realized I didn't have enough for a double recipe, and she said her parents had some end tables they'd bring down for Tim and I if we wanted them, they are downsizing some of their stuff. I said sure, that if we didn't like them, they could always be passed on to someone else in need.

My friend Lisa sent a Christmas card, with a cd of pictures from our wedding, as well as an ornament for me. She said that she was buying one for our annual ornament exchange my group of best friends do, and she said she had to buy one for me too, even though I couldn't be there. Well, that brought on the happy tears!

I'm laying off the tums, so far my tummy is not that bad today. It was getting really bad, to the point that I wondered if I was making it worse with over use of tums. It's just super sensitive.