covering tracks
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mellybrellyIt's really hard when you see lies and there's just nothing you can do about it.
My midwife and nurse are both now saying that my nurse turned up my pitocin with permission, but it was verbal permission that I didn't hear. That's a straight out lie. My doula, Shelli, saw her turning the pitocin up, and my midwife hadn't told her to turn it up. Minutes later, my midwife did say to me that she would like to turn it up again, and the nurse laughed and said she had been turning it up all along.
Now my midwife is saying she told her that she should do that, but it's a lie. Lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie. Just like it's a lie that the OB didn't swear at me. Just like it's a lie that they changed my sheets right away.
I just received a very detailed letter that basically says "you are a silly girl". Actually, it's two typed pages of justification. What it actually says is "Your recollection of the communication between the nurse and the midwife about increasing the pitocin is correct, however, because you were unable to hear the whole conversation and were not aware of our approved protocol for labor induction, you would not have known that the nurse acted appropriately in this situation. She followed the midwives verbal directions and written pitocin protocol.". SO I guess me saying I did not want any more pitocin for a while, and the midwife agreeing, means NOTHING because the hospital has some policyto cover their asses that says they can do whatever the fuck they like with the drugs once you have an IV.
Obviously when I have my next baby, if it's in hospital, I will need to make my birth plan extremely clear. I do not agree to the hospital's protocol on doing whatever the fuck they like.
It makes me really frustrated, but not surprised, that Paula is saying she verbally gave her the go ahead, when she didn't. She had just come into the room, I believe, when the nurse was doing it. I should have said something right in that second when the nurse was laughing about turning up my pitocin without the midwife's go ahead.
Eventually this will all be a distant memory. They do "hope you will allow us to rebuild your trust in the future". Hah.
The one positive is that they have obviously taken my concerns pretty serious, 5 months later they are still doing inquiries. Too bad they wouldn't eliminate my two thousand dollars or more that I owe the hospital and hospital OBs.
My midwife and nurse are both now saying that my nurse turned up my pitocin with permission, but it was verbal permission that I didn't hear. That's a straight out lie. My doula, Shelli, saw her turning the pitocin up, and my midwife hadn't told her to turn it up. Minutes later, my midwife did say to me that she would like to turn it up again, and the nurse laughed and said she had been turning it up all along.
Now my midwife is saying she told her that she should do that, but it's a lie. Lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie. Just like it's a lie that the OB didn't swear at me. Just like it's a lie that they changed my sheets right away.
I just received a very detailed letter that basically says "you are a silly girl". Actually, it's two typed pages of justification. What it actually says is "Your recollection of the communication between the nurse and the midwife about increasing the pitocin is correct, however, because you were unable to hear the whole conversation and were not aware of our approved protocol for labor induction, you would not have known that the nurse acted appropriately in this situation. She followed the midwives verbal directions and written pitocin protocol.". SO I guess me saying I did not want any more pitocin for a while, and the midwife agreeing, means NOTHING because the hospital has some policy
Obviously when I have my next baby, if it's in hospital, I will need to make my birth plan extremely clear. I do not agree to the hospital's protocol on doing whatever the fuck they like.
It makes me really frustrated, but not surprised, that Paula is saying she verbally gave her the go ahead, when she didn't. She had just come into the room, I believe, when the nurse was doing it. I should have said something right in that second when the nurse was laughing about turning up my pitocin without the midwife's go ahead.
Eventually this will all be a distant memory. They do "hope you will allow us to rebuild your trust in the future". Hah.
The one positive is that they have obviously taken my concerns pretty serious, 5 months later they are still doing inquiries. Too bad they wouldn't eliminate my two thousand dollars or more that I owe the hospital and hospital OBs.
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